MY STYLE FILE: A LIFE IN REFLECTION

Tuesday, May 23, 2017
I know, I know.. it's been a LONG time since I last blogged. A lot of different things have been happening in my life lately, so I have not had time to sit down and come up with anything interesting to say. With that though, this post is going to be a little different.I figured I'd actually take the time to do the sitting and writing and share with everyone what has been going on. Hopefully this will shed some light on why I've been absent.

First off, I FINALLY got a new job! It's still beyond crazy that I can actually say that now, the wait and the determination to find something outside of what I was doing was very arduous. To be honest, I was becoming extremely depressed and anxious that I was never going to be good enough for anything else besides the part-time position I was in. Don't get me wrong, what I was doing was absolutely amazing (being part of the social media team for the biggest Mall in America, WHAT?) and it was my first career job that I had out of college, but it had begun to drain me of my motivation, passion, and energy to keep going. After two years of learning about myself, what else I could picture myself doing in my future and having it culminate to something better, is nothing I take lightly. We all have our own path, whether we like it or not, and my path has steered me in directions that I haven't always necessarily enjoyed. Thankfully, this new course has led me into a full-time internship within the same company I was working at previously and it's been an absolute joy. It's given me new motivation in myself, and hopefully, what my future will look like after the internship is done.

All of this being said, the past two weeks have been emotionally draining for me. My depression has literally been kicking me in the ass, and I'm so upset that it's still rearing its ugly head - even when I should be happy with where I'm at right now. I know that depression doesn't just go away when something majorly positive happens, but I've been battling this since I was sixteen and I hate that it can still affect me when I least expect it. While I may be surprised that it's popped up lately, there are a few small things that have triggered me to be in a severely downcast mood. Family, friends, my feeling of self-worth being down in the gutter, my finances, and even the weather a little bit. They've all been this catalyst for the negativity to be clouding my brain. The self-worth aspect has been a major issue for me and will probably continue to do so- it's just a feeling of not being important to anyone, like if I disappeared that no one would care. I can have a whole group of people surround me and give me positivity + love in my life, but I still feel like I'm always being left out or forgotten. I'm not saying that I'm suicidal, I haven't tried anything for a very long time, but it's tough when you don't feel like you're being seen or heard. I hate that I'm saying this, but I ache and desperately need that sort of everyday validation or emotional connection. My thought process goes haywire when I don't receive that, but I think that is just a natural human emotion, if anything.

So, what can I do about it? There's the obvious answer - seeing a therapist - but I think that also opening this up for discussion could really be beneficial for myself and for others. Even typing this out has been a little therapeutic, which I definitely feel I (and others) should do so more often.
I won't let depression define or consume me. Hell, I can hide it very well in my day-to-day life and can surprise a lot of people when I disclaim that I'm suffering from it. After all these years, it's now gotten to the point that I can tell when a bout of negativity is going to flare up, but sometimes it is a guessing game. What or who is going to be the triggering point for it to start? Will it be myself and my inner thoughts, or an external source? I do go by the mantra though that it will eventually pass and I'll come out stronger on the other side. I just wish and hope that someday I'll constantly be able to be on that other side, stronger than ever.

If you're still with me on this long post, I appreciate it. I wouldn't normally write about something so personal on this blog, but I thought it'd be important to share this story with everyone. I know that some of the things I write about are a little superficial, there are so many other important things to talk about, but they are really what bring me joy and happiness. They spark my creativity and passion for something and you can't really deny anyone that.

If you are going through something similar - speak up! I'd love to hear about your strength and resilience going through such a tough mental illness. So I'll let this post sink in and will hopefully be start getting back into the swing of things soon. Enjoy this great outfit I put together with most items from Arc's Value Village (see my Instagram takeover I did two weekends ago) and a great top from Who What Wear x Target! See new posts next month.
Photos via Laura Posterick
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Mostly Lisa

MY STYLE FILE: A LITTLE STITCH HERE AND THERE

Friday, April 28, 2017
A chain stitch can go a long way.

No, really it can! Especially if you're not particularly good at sewing... Luckily there are expert craftsman out there that can sew to their hearts content and create beautiful works of art featuring embroidery with finite detail. Those featured details are just one part of why the embroidery trend is one of my favorites for spring 2017. If you followed any of the runway shows for this season, you may have seen quite a few designers tackling this trend head on - Gucci, Anna Sui, Jonathan Simkhai + Alexander Mcqueen to name a few! These heavily embellished garments offer so much inspiration and that's why I had to embrace and include it my own wardrobe.

I didn't have to look too far to find something to my liking and luckily came across this Honey Punch Embroidered Chiffon Kimono! Who knew PacSun carried something so chic? It's the perfect statement piece for any look - with embroidered flowers on the front and back, as well as a lightweight, flowy fit. It's exactly what I needed to jump start my collection! For this outfit, I decided to go for more of a 70's bohemian vibe and paired it with a flared denim from Target, block heel booties and a black high-low top from H&M. The kimono is such a great piece to complete any look, so I highly recommend getting one for yourself.

Also, let me know - what do you think of the embroidery trend?!
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Mostly Lisa

MY STYLE FILE: THAT RETRO FEELING

Thursday, April 13, 2017
If you follow me on Instagram, you have already seen a few glimpses of a shoot I did a week ago with E.L. Photography featuring this stunning ASOS Curve floral tea dress. You may also already be able to tell, but I'm a tiny bit obsessed with how all of this turned out. I keep looking through all the photos and can't believe that the person in the photographs, is me. I've never felt so beautiful before, like truly beautiful and glamorous, even before the flash went off. Being a vain person is not in my mentality, but I had to say, "hot damn, Lisa!" after I saw this whole retro look put together. Wearing this dress definitely makes me feel like I've stepped into another era, and with the backdrop of the Union Depot - it all turned out exactly how I imagined this My Style File to be.

There was also a need to have the best accessories with this retro-inspired dress, and I luckily didn't have to look very far. My lovely sister had just recently purchased my birthday present - which was a new Kate Spade handbag - that matched perfectly with a pair of Wayfarer sunglasses from Forever 21 + black block heels from Torrid! In the end, everything came together perfectly and this was just the perfect excuse to dress up. I can't wait to wear it again this spring and summer!
What's been one thing that's made you feel fabulous lately? A piece of jewelry? A haircut? Or what about like me - with a particular garment?
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10 BEAUTY MUST-HAVES FOR SPRING 2017

Monday, April 3, 2017
A new scent. A highlighter palette made to shine. A hydrating oil to get you through the day. These all add up to the best way to update your beauty routine for spring! This season is the perfect time to hit the refresh button on what type of products you're going to be using in warmer weather. For me, I'm looking for products that will give me a dewy look, be long-lasting and most of all - hide the redness that creeps up and give me a natural complexion. I've already added a few items to my daily routine (can we talk about the NYX Cosmetics 'Love Contours All' palette or the Tocca perfume in 'Stella'?!) but there's always room for more! See below for ten beauty must-have products that made my list this year, and let me know what made yours. 
1. Quench Lip Rescue ($19)
2. Glow Kit - Moon Child ($40)
3. Hydrating Oil ($24)
4. Chloe Roses De Chloe Eau de Toilette ($95)
5. Bunny Eye Brush Set ($57)
6. Beauty Amplifier Set and Refresh Spray ($16)
7. Chocolate Brow-nie Brow Pencil ($23)
8. Dior Addict Lacquer Stick ($35)
9. Limited-Edition Lights, Camera, Lashes Mascara ($23)
10. GALifornia pink blush ($29)
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Mostly Lisa